Lately, I have been feeling, well I don’t know what I have been feeling to be honest.
Something inside of me has always been somewhat horrified of change, I was that way as a six year old and we got a new car, and on every detail in between.
That something inside is rearing its ugly head again right now and I want to find a way to fight it and defeat it. Layed out in front of me is a real job, one that would mean a salary, more responsibility and who knows what else.
However my fear of change, of failure and even moreso of success is hampering that. I am so damn scared of what could happen that I am paralyzed, and that has to stop.
It is these unfounded fears that are killing me.