Days spent at work when I am bored, and all is quiet seem almost perfectly suited as times to go on here and blab away, so here I am.
Ever since I received my degrees from this learning institution, my thoughts and feelings have changed about it, it was honestly one of those moments where a light bulb in your head suddenly turns on.
Gone were the days where I thought working here and learning here were noble pursuits, and they were replaced with an old friend from my past days, dread. Now I am not saying that learning is not something wonderful, far from it actually. What I am saying is that I dread this place in many respects now. It’s not the place actually, and definitely not my co workers or even the students who sometimes ask stupifying questions, what I dread is me.
Or to put it more precisely, I dread my station in life. All of my friends with either the same level of education or less are making more than me and also working more hours. Now this is not an apples to apples comparison by any means, as they work in places I wouldn’t go nor would they be skilled to where my education would lead me, it is rather an observation that my current role in life is beneath where I should be and where I aspire to be.
This week I finally decided that instead of being the jerk who is constantly stating “I need to do…” I am actually going to take action. I am actually going to take a weird first step, and open up a credit card account, and quite possibly make one more juvenile decision and buy an iPhone (that’s a blog post for another time).
Second, on the agenda is taking care of the lack of a drivers license, I don’t know why I don’t have one, it just seemed to be something I could put off, but if I want to improve on my job I certainly have to be able to get to a new one right?
Soon after that is hopefully finding wheels so I can get to an interview and then the ultimate goal of a new job. What I need to tackle now though is the idea that I am not expected to be an expert at this stage in my life. I have a lot to learn and I need experience to learn it.
I am not saying I will achieve all this in an instant but hopefully it won’t take long.